Mart maintained his deceptive cheer
at the breakfast-table, and the haggard look of the
earlier hour passed away as he resolutely attacked
his chop. He spoke of his exile in a tone of resignation mixed
with humor. “Sure, the old dad will have
the laugh on us. He told us this was the jumpin’-off
place.”
“What will we do about the house?”
asked Bertha. “Will we sell or rent?”
“Nayther. Lave it as it
is,” replied he quickly. “So long
as I live I want to feel ’tis here ready for
ye whinever ye wish to use it. ’Tis not
mine. Without you I never would have had it, and
I want no other mistress in it. Sure, every chair,
every picture on the walls is there because of ye.
’Tis all you, and no one else shall mar it while
I live.”
This was the note which was most piercing
in her ears, and she hastened to stop it by remarking
the expense of maintaining the place its
possible decay and the like; but to all this he doggedly
replied: “I care not. I’d rather
burn it and all there is in it than turn it over to
some other woman. Go you to Ben and tell him my
will concerning it.”
This gave a new turn to her thought.
“I don’t want to do that. Why don’t
you go and tell him yourself?”
“Didn’t the doctor say
I must save meself worry? I hate to ask ye to
shoulder the heavy end of this proposition.”
His face lost its forced smile. “I’m
a sick man, darlin’; I know it now, and I must
save meself all I can. Ye may send Lucius down
and bring him up, or we’ll drive down and see
him; maybe the ride would do me good, but I can’t
climb them stairs ag’in.”
The temptation to see Ben once more,
alone in the bright office, proved too great for Bertha’s
resolution, and she answered: “All right,
I’ll go, but only to bring him down to you.
You must give the orders about the house.”
In spite of his iron determination
to be of good cheer in her presence, Mart’s
lips quivered with pain of parting as he looked round
the splendid dining-room, into which the sunlight
was pouring. Suddenly he broke forth: “Ye
must stay here, darlin’ never
mind me. ’Tis a sin and a shame to ask
ye to lave all this to go with a poor old ”
“Stop that!” she called,
sharply. “I won’t listen to any such
talk,” and he said no more.
They decided to go down about ten
o’clock, when the daily tide of his life rode
highest. This hour suited his own plan, for a
train left for the mountains not long after, and he
had resolved to make his escape while Bertha was with
Ben in the office. “There will be no need
of any change in the house,” he thought, “but
’twill do no hurt for them to talk it all over.”
For an hour or two he hobbled about
the yard and garden, taking a final look at the horses
and dogs, and his face was very lax and gray and his
voice broken as he talked with his men, who had learned
of the doctor’s orders, and were awkwardly silent
with sympathy. He soon grew tired and came back
to the porch to rest and wait for the hour of his departure.
Settling into his accustomed chair, which faced directly
upon the mountains over which the sun, wearing to
the south, was beginning to hang its vivid shadows,
he sat like a man of bronze. The clouds which
each day clothed the scarred and naked peaks with a
mantle of ermine and purple, were already assembling.
The range assumed a new and overpowering grandeur
in his eyes, for it typified the Big Divide, which
lay between him and the country of the soundless, dawnless
night.
Up that deep fold which lay between
the chieftain and his consort to the north ran the
western way a trail with no returning footprints;
and the thought made his heart beat painfully, while
a sense of the wonder and the terror of death came
to him. He was going away as the wounded grizzly
crawls to the thicket to die, unseen of his kind, even
of his mate.
To never return! To mount and
mount, each league separating him forever from the
mansion he had come to enjoy, the wife he loved better
than his own life. “I cannot believe it,”
he whispered, “and yet I must make it so.”
Then he began to wonder, grimly, just
when his heart would fail, just where it would burst
like a rotten cinch. “Will it be on the
train? Suppose I last to the coal-switch, then
I must climb to the mine. Suppose I live to reach
the mine, then what? Oh, well, ’tis easy
to slip from the cliff.”
Meanwhile, out under the trees, the
gardener was spading turf, the lawn-mower was purring
briskly and as though no sentence of death had been
passed upon the master of the place. In this Haney
saw the world’s action typified. The individual
is of little value the race alone counts.
He shuffled down to meet the carriage
at the gate, and Lucius helped him in before Bertha
could reach him, and they drove off down the street
so exactly in their usual way that Bertha was moved
to say: “I don’t believe it!
I can’t realize we’re quitting this town
to-morrow.”
“No more can I, but I reckon
it’s good-bye all the same for me,
anyhow. I despise meself for asking ye to go,
darlin’ I don’t ask it.
Stay you! I’m not demanding anything at
all. ’Tis fitter for me to go alone.
Stay on, darlin’ ’twill comfort
me to lave ye safe and happy here.”
She shook her head with quite as much
determination as he. “No, Mart, my mind
is made up I know my job, and I’m
going to muckle to it like a little lady, so don’t
fuss.”
The air was beautifully clear and
bracing, and a minute later Haney remarked, sadly:
“I reckon the doctor knows his trade, but ’tis
bitter nonsense to me when a man says the murky wind
of the low country is better for a sick man than this.”
She was very tender at heart as she
replied: “I’m afraid he’s right,
Mart. I could see you weren’t so well here;
but I was selfish I tried to argue different.
You’ll be better down below, that’s dead
certain.”
“Well, the bets are all laid
and the wheel spinning. I’m ready to take
me exile but I hate to drag ye down with
me.”
“Don’t worry about me,”
she answered, with intent to reassure him. “To
be honest, I kind o’ like the East.”
At the door of Ben’s office
building she got out, leaving him in the carriage.
As she looked back at him from the doorway something
which seemed like anguish in his face moved her, and
she returned to the wheel to say, “Never mind,
Mart, we’ll buy a new home down there.”
He was struggling as if with the pangs
of death, but he said, “’Tis childish,
I know, but I hate to say good-bye to it all.”
She patted his hand as if soothing
a child, and, turning, mounted the stairway.
How weak and old he seemed at the moment!
Fordyce was at work. She could
hear his typewriter click laboriously (he was his
own typist as yet), and she stood for a moment in the
hall with hand pressed hard upon her bosom, the full
significance of this last visit overwhelming her.
Here was the end of her own happiness the
beginning of long-drawn misery and heart-hunger.
Her blood beat tumultuously in her throat, and each
throb was a physical, smothering pain.
At last she grew calmer and knocked.
Ben opened the door, and his face shone with joy.
“You’re late!” he reproachfully exclaimed;
then, as he peered into the hall, he asked, “Where’s
the Captain?”
She was very white as she answered:
“He can’t come up this morning. He
ain’t able.”
“Is he worse?” His face expressed swift
concern.
“Yes Dr. Steele came last night and
examined him ”
“What did he say?”
“He told us to ‘get out’ of here quick.”
He drew her in and shut the door.
“Tell me all about it. What is the matter?”
“It’s his heart.
He can’t stand it here. We’ve got
to get away down the slope to-morrow.”
“Not to stay?”
“That’s what Steele says. Mart’s
in bad shape.”
He searched her face with earnest
gaze. “I can’t understand that.
He seemed so happy and so much better, too.”
“He’s been a good deal
worse than he let on, or else he fooled himself.
The doctor found his heart jumping cogs right along.”
“And he positively ordered you to go below?”
“Yes he scared me. He said Mart
might die any minute if he stayed.”
In the silence that followed his face
became almost as white as her own, for he understood
and shared her temptation. At last he said, slowly,
“And you are going with him?”
“Yes, I must. Don’t you see I must?”
He understood, too. Haney had
refused to go without her, and to stay would be to
shorten his life.
“How did the Captain take it?” he asked
with effort.
“Mighty hard at first, but he’s
fairly cheerful to-day. He wants to leave me
here but I’m going with him.
It’s my business to be where he is,” she
added. “He sure needs me now.”
“What are you going to do with the house?”
“Leave it just as it is.
He won’t sell it or rent it. He wants you
to look after all his business just the same ”
“I can’t do that.”
“Why not?”
“Because I don’t intend
to stay here.” As he spoke his excitement
mounted. “My little world was all askew
before you came. You’ve put the finishing-touch
to it. I’m ready to make my own will at
this moment.”
“You mustn’t talk that
way,” she admonished. “I don’t
like to see you lose your grip.” Her words
were commonplace, but her hesitating, tremulous voice
betrayed her and exalted him. “I’m we
are depending on you.”
His face, his eyes, filled her with
light. She forgot all the rest of the world for
the moment, and he, looking upon her with a knowledge
that she loved him and was about to leave him, spoke
fatefully as if the words came forth in
spite of his will. “You don’t seem
to realize how deeply I’m going to miss you.
You cannot know how much your presence means to me
here in this small town. I will not stay on without
the hope of seeing you. If you go, I will not
remain here another day.”
She fought against the feeling of
pride, of joy, which these words gave her. “You
mustn’t say that you’ve got
to stay with Alice.”
“Alice!” his voice rose.
“Alice has given me back my ring and is going
home. When you are gone, what is left in this
town for me?” He rose and walked up and down,
a choking sob in his throat. “My God!
It’s horrible to feel our good days ending in
a crash like this. What does it all mean?
I refuse to admit that our shining little world is
only a house of cards. Are we never to see each
other again? I refuse to say good-bye. I
won’t have it so!” He faced her again with
curt inquiry. “Where are you going to live?”
“I don’t know maybe in Chicago maybe
in New York.”
“No matter where it is, I will
come to you. I cannot lose you out of my life I
will not!”
“No, you mustn’t do that.
It ain’t square to Mart I can’t
see you any more now.”
He seized upon the significance of
that little final word. “What do you mean
by now? Do you mean because Mart is worse?
Or do you mean that I have forfeited your good-will
by my own action?” He came closer to her and
his voice was low and insistent as he continued:
“Or do you mean something very sweet
and comforting to me? Do you love me, Bertie?
Do you? Is that your meaning?”
She struggled against him as she answered:
“I don’t know Yes, I do know it
ain’t right for me for you to say
these things to me while I am Mart Haney’s wife.”
He caught at her hands and looked
upon her with face grown older and graver as he bitterly
wailed: “Why couldn’t we have met
before you went to him? You must not go with
him now, for you are mine at heart, you belong to
me.”
She rose with instinctive desire to
flee, but he held her hands in both of his and hurried
on: “You do love me! I am sure of it!
Why try to conceal it? You would marry me if
you were free?” His eyes pierced her as he proceeded,
transformed by the power of his own plea. “We
belong to each other don’t you know
we do? I am sorry for Alice, but I do not love
her I never loved her as I love you.
She understands this. That is why she has returned
my ring there is nothing further for me
to say to her. As for Marshall Haney I pity him,
as you do, but he has no right to claim you.”
“He don’t claim me. He wants me to
stay here.”
“Then why don’t you?”
“Because he needs me.”
“So do I need you.”
“But not the way I mean he is sick
and helpless.”
He drew her closer. “You
must not go. I will not let you go. You’re
a part of my life now.” His words ceased,
but his eyes called with burning intensity.
She struggled, not against him, but
in opposition to something within herself which seemed
about to overwhelm her will. It was so easy to
listen, to yield and so hard to free her
hands and turn away, but the thought of Haney waiting,
and a knowledge of his confident trust in her, brought
back her sterner self.
“No!” she cried out sharply,
imperiously. “I won’t have it!
You mustn’t touch me again, not while he lives!
You mustn’t even see me again!”
He understood and respected her resolution,
but could not release her at the moment. “Won’t
you kiss me good-bye?”
She drew her hands away. “No,
it’s all wrong, and you know it! I’ll
despise you if you touch me again! Good-bye!”
Thereupon his clean, bright, honorable
soul responded to her reproof, rose to dominion over
the flesh, and he said: “Forgive me.
I didn’t mean to tempt you to anything wrong.
Good-bye!” and so they parted in such anguish
as only lovers know when farewells seem final, and
their empty hearts, calling for a word of promise,
are denied.