I-
Strether occupied beside little Bilham,
three evenings after his interview with Mamie Pocock,
the same deep divan they had enjoyed together on the
first occasion of our friend’s meeting Madame
de Vionnet and her daughter in the apartment of the
Boulevard Malesherbes, where his position affirmed
itself again as ministering to an easy exchange of
impressions. The present evening had a different
stamp; if the company was much more numerous, so,
inevitably, were the ideas set in motion. It
was on the other hand, however, now strongly marked
that the talkers moved, in respect to such matters,
round an inner, a protected circle. They knew
at any rate what really concerned them to-night, and
Strether had begun by keeping his companion close to
it. Only a few of Chad’s guests had dined that
is fifteen or twenty, a few compared with the large
concourse offered to sight by eleven o’clock;
but number and mass, quantity and quality, light, fragrance,
sound, the overflow of hospitality meeting the high
tide of response, had all from the first pressed upon
Strether’s consciousness, and he felt himself
somehow part and parcel of the most festive scene,
as the term was, in which he had ever in his life
been engaged. He had perhaps seen, on Fourths
of July and on dear old domestic Commencements, more
people assembled, but he had never seen so many in
proportion to the space, or had at all events never
known so great a promiscuity to show so markedly as
picked. Numerous as was the company, it had still
been made so by selection, and what was above all
rare for Strether was that, by no fault of his own,
he was in the secret of the principle that had worked.
He hadn’t enquired, he had averted his head,
but Chad had put him a pair of questions that themselves
smoothed the ground. He hadn’t answered
the questions, he had replied that they were the young
man’s own affair; and he had then seen perfectly
that the latter’s direction was already settled.
Chad had applied for counsel only
by way of intimating that he knew what to do; and
he had clearly never known it better than in now presenting
to his sister the whole circle of his society.
This was all in the sense and the spirit of the note
struck by him on that lady’s arrival; he had
taken at the station itself a line that led him without
a break, and that enabled him to lead the Pococks though
dazed a little, no doubt, breathless, no doubt, and
bewildered to the uttermost end of the
passage accepted by them perforce as pleasant.
He had made it for them violently pleasant and mercilessly
full; the upshot of which was, to Strether’s
vision, that they had come all the way without discovering
it to be really no passage at all. It was a
brave blind alley, where to pass was impossible and
where, unless they stuck fast, they would have which
was always awkward publicly to back out.
They were touching bottom assuredly tonight; the whole
scene represented the terminus of the cul-de-sac.
So could things go when there was a hand to keep
them consistent a hand that pulled the wire
with a skill at which the elder man more and more marvelled.
The elder man felt responsible, but he also felt
successful, since what had taken place was simply
the issue of his own contention, six weeks before,
that they properly should wait to see what their friends
would have really to say. He had determined
Chad to wait, he had determined him to see; he was
therefore not to quarrel with the time given up to
the business. As much as ever, accordingly,
now that a fortnight had elapsed, the situation created
for Sarah, and against which she had raised no protest,
was that of her having accommodated herself to her
adventure as to a pleasure-party surrendered perhaps
even somewhat in excess to bustle and to “pace.”
If her brother had been at any point the least bit
open to criticism it might have been on the ground
of his spicing the draught too highly and pouring
the cup too full. Frankly treating the whole
occasion of the presence of his relatives as an opportunity
for amusement, he left it, no doubt, but scant margin
as an opportunity for anything else. He suggested,
invented, abounded yet all the while with
the loosest easiest rein. Strether, during his
own weeks, had gained a sense of knowing Paris; but
he saw it afresh, and with fresh emotion, in the form
of the knowledge offered to his colleague.
A thousand unuttered thoughts hummed
for him in the air of these observations; not the
least frequent of which was that Sarah might well
of a truth not quite know whither she was drifting.
She was in no position not to appear to expect that
Chad should treat her handsomely; yet she struck our
friend as privately stiffening a little each time
she missed the chance of marking the great nuance.
The great nuance was in brief that of course her brother
must treat her handsomely she should like
to see him not; but that treating her handsomely, none
the less, wasn’t all in all treating
her handsomely buttered no parsnips; and that in fine
there were moments when she felt the fixed eyes of
their admirable absent mother fairly screw into the
flat of her back. Strether, watching, after his
habit, and overscoring with thought, positively had
moments of his own in which he found himself sorry
for her occasions on which she affected
him as a person seated in a runaway vehicle and turning
over the question of a possible jump. Would
she jump, could she, would that be a safe placed this
question, at such instants, sat for him in her lapse
into pallor, her tight lips, her conscious eyes.
It came back to the main point at issue: would
she be, after all, to be squared? He believed
on the whole she would jump; yet his alternations
on this subject were the more especial stuff of his
suspense. One thing remained well before him a
conviction that was in fact to gain sharpness from
the impressions of this evening: that if she
should gather in her skirts, close her eyes and
quit the carriage while in motion, he would promptly
enough become aware. She would alight from her
headlong course more or less directly upon him; it
would be appointed to him, unquestionably, to receive
her entire weight. Signs and portents of the
experience thus in reserve for him had as it happened,
multiplied even through the dazzle of Chad’s
party. It was partly under the nervous consciousness
of such a prospect that, leaving almost every one
in the two other rooms, leaving those of the guests
already known to him as well as a mass of brilliant
strangers of both sexes and of several varieties of
speech, he had desired five quiet minutes with little
Bilham, whom he always found soothing and even a little
inspiring, and to whom he had actually moreover something
distinct and important to say.
He had felt of old for
it already seemed long ago rather humiliated
at discovering he could learn in talk with a personage
so much his junior the lesson of a certain moral ease;
but he had now got used to that whether
or no the mixture of the fact with other humiliations
had made it indistinct, whether or no directly from
little Bilham’s example, the example of his
being contentedly just the obscure and acute little
Bilham he was. It worked so for him, Strether
seemed to see; and our friend had at private hours
a wan smile over the fact that he himself, after so
many more years, was still in search of something
that would work. However, as we have said, it
worked just now for them equally to have found a corner
a little apart. What particularly kept it apart
was the circumstance that the music in the salon was
admirable, with two or three such singers as it was
a privilege to hear in private. Their presence
gave a distinction to Chad’s entertainment,
and the interest of calculating their effect on Sarah
was actually so sharp as to be almost painful.
Unmistakeably, in her single person, the motive of
the composition and dressed in a splendour of crimson
which affected Strether as the sound of a fall through
a skylight, she would now be in the forefront of the
listening circle and committed by it up to her eyes.
Those eyes during the wonderful dinner itself he
hadn’t once met; having confessedly perhaps
a little pusillanimously arranged with
Chad that he should be on the same side of the table.
But there was no use in having arrived now with little
Bilham at an unprecedented point of intimacy unless
he could pitch everything into the pot. “You
who sat where you could see her, what does she make
of it all? By which I mean on what terms does
she take it?”
“Oh she takes it, I judge, as
proving that the claim of his family is more than
ever justified.”
“She isn’t then pleased with what he has
to show?”
“On the contrary; she’s
pleased with it as with his capacity to do this kind
of thing more than she has been pleased
with anything for a long time. But she wants
him to show it there. He has no right to
waste it on the likes of us.”
Strether wondered. “She
wants him to move the whole thing over?”
“The whole thing with
an important exception. Everything he has ’picked
up’ and the way he knows how.
She sees no difficulty in that. She’d
run the show herself, and she’ll make the handsome
concession that Woollett would be on the whole in
some ways the better for it. Not that it wouldn’t
be also in some ways the better for Woollett.
The people there are just as good.”
“Just as good as you and these
others? Ah that may be. But such an occasion
as this, whether or no,” Strether said, “isn’t
the people. It’s what has made the people
possible.”
“Well then,” his friend
replied, “there you are; I give you my impression
for what it’s worth. Mrs. Pocock has seen,
and that’s to-night how she sits there.
If you were to have a glimpse of her face you’d
understand me. She has made up her mind to
the sound of expensive music.”
Strether took it freely in.
“Ah then I shall have news of her.”
“I don’t want to frighten
you, but I think that likely. However,”
little Bilham continued, “if I’m of the
least use to you to hold on by !”
“You’re not of the least!” and
Strether laid an appreciative hand on him to say it.
“No one’s of the least.” With
which, to mark how gaily he could take it, he patted
his companion’s knee. “I must meet
my fate alone, and I shall oh you’ll
see! And yet,” he pursued the next moment,
“you can help me too. You once said
to me” he followed this further “that
you held Chad should marry. I didn’t see
then so well as I know now that you meant he should
marry Miss Pocock. Do you still consider that
he should? Because if you do” he
kept it up “I want you immediately
to change your mind. You can help me that way.”
“Help you by thinking he should not marry?”
“Not marry at all events Mamie.”
“And who then?”
“Ah,” Strether returned,
“that I’m not obliged to say. But
Madame de Vionnet I suggest when
he can.’
“Oh!” said little Bilham with some sharpness.
“Oh precisely! But he
needn’t marry at all I’m at
any rate not obliged to provide for it. Whereas
in your case I rather feel that I am.”
Little Bilham was amused. “Obliged to
provide for my marrying?”
“Yes after all I’ve done to
you!”
The young man weighed it. “Have you done
as much as that?”
“Well,” said Strether,
thus challenged, “of course I must remember what
you’ve also done to me. We may perhaps
call it square. But all the same,” he
went on, “I wish awfully you’d marry Mamie
Pocock yourself.”
Little Bilham laughed out. “Why
it was only the other night, in this very place, that
you were proposing to me a different union altogether.”
“Mademoiselle de Vionnet?”
Well, Strether easily confessed it. “That,
I admit, was a vain image. This is practical
politics. I want to do something good for both
of you I wish you each so well; and you
can see in a moment the trouble it will save me to
polish you off by the same stroke. She likes
you, you know. You console her. And she’s
splendid.”
Little Bilham stared as a delicate
appetite stares at an overheaped plate. “What
do I console her for?”
It just made his friend impatient. “Oh
come, you knows”
“And what proves for you that she likes me?”
“Why the fact that I found her
three days ago stopping at home alone all the golden
afternoon on the mere chance that you’d come
to her, and hanging over her balcony on that of seeing
your cab drive up. I don’t know what you
want more.”
Little Bilham after a moment found
it. “Only just to know what proves to
you that I like her.”
“Oh if what I’ve just
mentioned isn’t enough to make you do it, you’re
a stony-hearted little fiend. Besides” Strether
encouraged his fancy’s flight “you
showed your inclination in the way you kept her waiting,
kept her on purpose to see if she cared enough for
you.”
His companion paid his ingenuity the
deference of a pause. “I didn’t
keep her waiting. I came at the hour. I
wouldn’t have kept her waiting for the world,”
the young man honourably declared.
“Better still then
there you are!” And Strether, charmed, held
him the faster. “Even if you didn’t
do her justice, moreover,” he continued, “I
should insist on your immediately coming round to it.
I want awfully to have worked it. I want” and
our friend spoke now with a yearning that was really
earnest “at least to have done that.”
“To have married me off without a
penny?”
“Well, I shan’t live long;
and I give you my word, now and here, that I’ll
leave you every penny of my own. I haven’t
many, unfortunately, but you shall have them all.
And Miss Pocock, I think, has a few. I want,”
Strether went on, “to have been at least to that
extent constructive even expiatory. I’ve
been sacrificing so to strange gods that I feel I
want to put on record, somehow, my fidelity fundamentally
unchanged after all to our own. I
feel as if my hands were embrued with the blood of
monstrous alien altars of another faith
altogether. There it is it’s
done.” And then he further explained.
“It took hold of me because the idea of getting
her quite out of the way for Chad helps to clear my
ground.”
The young man, at this, bounced about,
and it brought them face to face in admitted amusement.
“You want me to marry as a convenience to Chad?”
“No,” Strether debated “He
doesn’t care whether you marry or not. It’s
as a convenience simply to my own plan for him.”
“’Simply’!” and
little Bilham’s concurrence was in itself a lively
comment. “Thank you. But I thought,”
he continued, “you had exactly no plan
‘for’ him.”
“Well then call it my plan for
myself which may be well, as you say, to
have none. His situation, don’t you see?
is reduced now to the bare facts one has to recognise.
Mamie doesn’t want him, and he doesn’t
want Mamie: so much as that these days have made
clear. It’s a thread we can wind up and
tuck in.”
But little Bilham still questioned.
“You can since you seem so much
to want to. But why should I?”
Poor Strether thought it over, but
was obliged of course to admit that his demonstration
did superficially fail. “Seriously, there
is no reason. It’s my affair I
must do it alone. I’ve only my fantastic
need of making my dose stiff.”
Little Bilham wondered. “What do you call
your dose?”
“Why what I have to swallow. I want my
conditions unmitigated.”
He had spoken in the tone of talk
for talk’s sake, and yet with an obscure truth
lurking in the loose folds; a circumstance presently
not without its effect on his young friend.
Little Bilham’s eyes rested on him a moment
with some intensity; then suddenly, as if everything
had cleared up, he gave a happy laugh. It seemed
to say that if pretending, or even trying, or still
even hoping, to be able to care for Mamie would be
of use, he was all there for the job. “I’ll
do anything in the world for you!”
“Well,” Strether smiled,
“anything in the world is all I want. I
don’t know anything that pleased me in her more,”
he went on, “than the way that, on my finding
her up there all alone, coming on her unawares and
feeling greatly for her being so out of it, she knocked
down my tall house of cards with her instant and cheerful
allusion to the next young man. It was somehow
so the note I needed her staying at home
to receive him.”
“It was Chad of course,”
said little Bilham, “who asked the next young
man I like your name for me! to
call.”
“So I supposed all
of which, thank God, is in our innocent and natural
manners. But do you know,” Strether asked,
“if Chad knows ?” And then as
this interlocutor seemed at a loss: “Why
where she has come out.”
Little Bilham, at this, met his face
with a conscious look it was as if, more
than anything yet, the allusion had penetrated.
“Do you know yourself?”
Strether lightly shook his head.
“There I stop. Oh, odd as it may appear
to you, there are things I don’t know.
I only got the sense from her of something very sharp,
and yet very deep down, that she was keeping all to
herself. That is I had begun with the belief
that she had kept it to herself; but face to
face with her there I soon made out that there was
a person with whom she would have shared it.
I had thought she possibly might with me but
I saw then that I was only half in her confidence.
When, turning to me to greet me for she
was on the balcony and I had come in without her knowing
it she showed me she had been expecting
you and was proportionately disappointed, I got
hold of the tail of my conviction. Half an hour
later I was in possession of all the rest of it.
You know what has happened.” He looked
at his young friend hard then he felt sure.
“For all you say, you’re up to your eyes.
So there you are.”
Little Bilham after an instant pulled
half round. “I assure you she hasn’t
told me anything.”
“Of course she hasn’t.
For what do you suggest that I suppose her to take
you? But you’ve been with her every day,
you’ve seen her freely, you’ve liked her
greatly I stick to that and you’ve
made your profit of it. You know what she has
been through as well as you know that she has dined
here to-night which must have put her, by
the way, through a good deal more.”
The young man faced this blast; after
which he pulled round the rest of the way. “I
haven’t in the least said she hasn’t been
nice to me. But she’s proud.”
“And quite properly. But not too proud
for that.”
“It’s just her pride that
has made her. Chad,” little Bilham loyally
went on, “has really been as kind to her as possible.
It’s awkward for a man when a girl’s in
love with him.”
“Ah but she isn’t now.”
Little Bilham sat staring before him;
then he sprang up as if his friend’s penetration,
recurrent and insistent, made him really after all
too nervous. “No she isn’t
now. It isn’t in the least,” he went
on, “Chad’s fault. He’s really
all right. I mean he would have been willing.
But she came over with ideas. Those she had
got at home. They had been her motive and support
in joining her brother and his wife. She was
to save our friend.”
“Ah like me, poor thing?” Strether also
got to his feet.
“Exactly she had
a bad moment. It was very soon distinct to her,
to pull her up, to let her down, that, alas, he was,
he is, saved. There’s nothing left
for her to do.”
“Not even to love him?”
“She would have loved him better as she originally
believed him.”
Strether wondered “Of course
one asks one’s self what notion a little girl
forms, where a young man’s in question, of such
a history and such a state.”
“Well, this little girl saw
them, no doubt, as obscure, but she saw them practically
as wrong. The wrong for her was the obscure.
Chad turns out at any rate right and good and disconcerting,
while what she was all prepared for, primed and girded
and wound up for, was to deal with him as the general
opposite.”
“Yet wasn’t her whole
point” Strether weighed it “that
he was to be, that he could be, made better,
redeemed?”
Little Bilham fixed it all a moment,
and then with a small headshake that diffused a tenderness:
“She’s too late. Too late for the
miracle.”
“Yes” his companion
saw enough. “Still, if the worst fault
of his condition is that it may be all there for her
to profit by ?”
“Oh she doesn’t want to
‘profit,’ in that flat way. She doesn’t
want to profit by another woman’s work she
wants the miracle to have been her own miracle.
That’s what she’s too late for.”
Strether quite felt how it all fitted,
yet there seemed one loose piece. “I’m
bound to say, you know, that she strikes one, on these
lines, as fastidious what you call here
difficile.”
Little Bilham tossed up his chin.
“Of course she’s difficile on
any lines! What else in the world are our
Mamies the real, the right ones?”
“I see, I see,” our friend
repeated, charmed by the responsive wisdom he had
ended by so richly extracting. “Mamie is
one of the real and the right.”
“The very thing itself.”
“And what it comes to then,”
Strether went on, “is that poor awful Chad is
simply too good for her.”
“Ah too good was what he was
after all to be; but it was she herself, and she herself
only, who was to have made him so.”
It hung beautifully together, but
with still a loose end. “Wouldn’t
he do for her even if he should after all break ”
“With his actual influence?”
Oh little Bilham had for this enquiry the sharpest
of all his controls. “How can he ’do’ on
any terms whatever when he’s flagrantly
spoiled?”
Strether could only meet the question
with his passive, his receptive pleasure. “Well,
thank goodness, you’re not! You remain
for her to save, and I come back, on so beautiful
and full a demonstration, to my contention of just
now that of your showing distinct signs
of her having already begun.”
The most he could further say to himself as
his young friend turned away was that the
charge encountered for the moment no renewed denial.
Little Bilham, taking his course back to the music,
only shook his good-natured ears an instant, in the
manner of a terrier who has got wet; while Strether
relapsed into the sense which had for him
in these days most of comfort that he was
free to believe in anything that from hour to hour
kept him going. He had positively motions and
flutters of this conscious hour-to-hour kind, temporary
surrenders to irony, to fancy, frequent instinctive
snatches at the growing rose of observation, constantly
stronger for him, as he felt, in scent and colour,
and in which he could bury his nose even to wantonness.
This last resource was offered him, for that matter,
in the very form of his next clear perception the
vision of a prompt meeting, in the doorway of the
room, between little Bilham and brilliant Miss Barrace,
who was entering as Bilham withdrew. She had
apparently put him a question, to which he had replied
by turning to indicate his late interlocutor; toward
whom, after an interrogation further aided by a resort
to that optical machinery which seemed, like her other
ornaments, curious and archaic, the genial lady, suggesting
more than ever for her fellow guest the old French
print, the historic portrait, directed herself with
an intention that Strether instantly met. He
knew in advance the first note she would sound, and
took in as she approached all her need of sounding
it. Nothing yet had been so “wonderful”
between them as the present occasion; and it was her
special sense of this quality in occasions that she
was there, as she was in most places, to feed.
That sense had already been so well fed by the situation
about them that she had quitted the other room, forsaken
the music, dropped out of the play, abandoned, in
a word, the stage itself, that she might stand a minute
behind the scenes with Strether and so perhaps figure
as one of the famous augurs replying, behind the oracle,
to the wink of the other. Seated near him presently
where little Bilham had sat, she replied in truth
to many things; beginning as soon as he had said to
her what he hoped he said without fatuity “All
you ladies are extraordinarily kind to me.”
She played her long handle, which
shifted her observation; she saw in an instant all
the absences that left them free. “How
can we be anything else? But isn’t that
exactly your plight? ’We ladies’ oh
we’re nice, and you must be having enough of
us! As one of us, you know, I don’t pretend
I’m crazy about us. But Miss Gostrey at
least to-night has left you alone, hasn’t she?”
With which she again looked about as if Maria might
still lurk.
“Oh yes,” said Strether;
“she’s only sitting up for me at home.”
And then as this elicited from his companion her gay
“Oh, oh, oh!” he explained that he meant
sitting up in suspense and prayer. “We
thought it on the whole better she shouldn’t
be present; and either way of course it’s a
terrible worry for her.” He abounded in
the sense of his appeal to the ladies, and they might
take their choice of his doing so from humility or
from pride. “Yet she inclines to believe
I shall come out.”
“Oh I incline to believe too
you’ll come out!” Miss Barrace,
with her laugh, was not to be behind. “Only
the question’s about where, isn’t
it? However,” she happily continued, “if
it’s anywhere at all it must be very far on,
mustn’t it? To do us justice, I think,
you know,” she laughed, “we do, among
us all, want you rather far on. Yes, yes,”
she repeated in her quick droll way; “we want
you very, very far on!” After which she
wished to know why he had thought it better Maria shouldn’t
be present.
“Oh,” he replied, “it
was really her own idea. I should have wished
it. But she dreads responsibility.”
“And isn’t that a new thing for her?”
“To dread it? No doubt no doubt.
But her nerve has given way.”
Miss Barrace looked at him a moment.
“She has too much at stake.” Then
less gravely: “Mine, luckily for me, holds
out.”
“Luckily for me too” Strether
came back to that. “My own isn’t
so firm, my appetite for responsibility isn’t
so sharp, as that I haven’t felt the very principle
of this occasion to be ‘the more the merrier.’
If we are so merry it’s because Chad has
understood so well.”
“He has understood amazingly,” said Miss
Barrace.
“It’s wonderful Strether anticipated
for her.
“It’s wonderful!”
she, to meet it, intensified; so that, face to face
over it, they largely and recklessly laughed.
But she presently added: “Oh I see the
principle. If one didn’t one would be lost.
But when once one has got hold of it ”
“It’s as simple as twice two! From
the moment he had to do something ”
“A crowd” she
took him straight up “was the only
thing? Rather, rather: a rumpus of sound,”
she laughed, “or nothing. Mrs. Pocock’s
built in, or built out whichever you call
it; she’s packed so tight she can’t move.
She’s in splendid isolation” Miss
Barrace embroidered the theme.
Strether followed, but scrupulous
of justice. “Yet with every one in the
place successively introduced to her.”
“Wonderfully but
just so that it does build her out. She’s
bricked up, she’s buried alive!”
Strether seemed for a moment to look
at it; but it brought him to a sigh. “Oh
but she’s not dead! It will take more than
this to kill her.”
His companion had a pause that might
have been for pity. “No, I can’t
pretend I think she’s finished or
that it’s for more than to-night.”
She remained pensive as if with the same compunction.
“It’s only up to her chin.”
Then again for the fun of it: “She can
breathe.”
“She can breathe!” he
echoed it in the same spirit. “And do you
know,” he went on, “what’s really
all this time happening to me? through
the beauty of music, the gaiety of voices, the uproar
in short of our revel and the felicity of your wit?
The sound of Mrs. Pocock’s respiration drowns
for me, I assure you, every other. It’s
literally all I hear.”
She focussed him with her clink of
chains. “Well !” she breathed
ever so kindly.
“Well, what?”
“She is free from her chin
up,” she mused; “and that will be
enough for her.”
“It will be enough for me!”
Strether ruefully laughed. “Waymarsh has
really,” he then asked, “brought her to
see you?”
“Yes but that’s
the worst of it. I could do you no good.
And yet I tried hard.”
Strether wondered. “And how did you try?”
“Why I didn’t speak of you.”
“I see. That was better.”
“Then what would have been worse?
For speaking or silent,” she lightly wailed,
“I somehow ‘compromise.’ And
it has never been any one but you.”
“That shows” he
was magnanimous “that it’s something
not in you, but in one’s self. It’s
my fault.”
She was silent a little. “No,
it’s Mr. Waymarsh’s. It’s the
fault of his having brought her.”
“Ah then,” said Strether
good-naturedly, “why did he bring her?”
“He couldn’t afford not to.”
“Oh you were a trophy one
of the spoils of conquest? But why in that case,
since you do ’compromise’ ”
“Don’t I compromise him
as well? I do compromise him as well,”
Miss Barrace smiled. “I compromise him
as hard as I can. But for Mr. Waymarsh it isn’t
fatal. It’s so far as his wonderful
relation with Mrs. Pocock is concerned favourable.”
And then, as he still seemed slightly at sea:
“The man who had succeeded with me, don’t
you see? For her to get him from me was such
an added incentive.”
Strether saw, but as if his path was
still strewn with surprises. “It’s
‘from’ you then that she has got him?”
She was amused at his momentary muddle.
“You can fancy my fight! She believes
in her triumph. I think it has been part of her
joy.
“Oh her joy!” Strether sceptically murmured.
“Well, she thinks she has had
her own way. And what’s to-night for her
but a kind of apotheosis? Her frock’s really
good.”
“Good enough to go to heaven
in? For after a real apotheosis,” Strether
went on, “there’s nothing but heaven.
For Sarah there’s only to-morrow.”
“And you mean that she won’t find to-morrow
heavenly?”
“Well, I mean that I somehow
feel to-night on her behalf too
good to be true. She has had her cake; that
is she’s in the act now of having it, of swallowing
the largest and sweetest piece. There won’t
be another left for her. Certainly I haven’t
one. It can only, at the best, be Chad.”
He continued to make it out as for their common entertainment.
“He may have one, as it were, up his sleeve;
yet it’s borne in upon me that if he had ”
“He wouldn’t” she
quite understood “have taken all this
trouble? I dare say not, and, if I may be quite
free and dreadful, I very much hope he won’t
take any more. Of course I won’t pretend
now,” she added, “not to know what it’s
a question of.”
“Oh every one must know now,”
poor Strether thoughtfully admitted; “and it’s
strange enough and funny enough that one should feel
everybody here at this very moment to be knowing and
watching and waiting.”
“Yes isn’t
it indeed funny?” Miss Barrace quite rose to
it. “That’s the way we are in
Paris.” She was always pleased with a new
contribution to that queerness. “It’s
wonderful! But, you know,” she declared,
“it all depends on you. I don’t want
to turn the knife in your vitals, but that’s
naturally what you just now meant by our all being
on top of you. We know you as the hero of the
drama, and we’re gathered to see what you’ll
do.”
Strether looked at her a moment with
a light perhaps slightly obscured. “I think
that must be why the hero has taken refuge in this
corner. He’s scared at his heroism he
shrinks from his part.”
“Ah but we nevertheless believe
he’ll play it. That’s why,”
Miss Barrace kindly went on, “we take such an
interest in you. We feel you’ll come up
to the scratch.” And then as he seemed perhaps
not quite to take fire: “Don’t let
him do it.”
“Don’t let Chad go?”
“Yes, keep hold of him.
With all this” and she indicated
the general tribute “he has done
enough. We love him here he’s
charming.”
“It’s beautiful,”
said Strether, “the way you all can simplify
when you will.”
But she gave it to him back.
“It’s nothing to the way you will when
you must.”
He winced at it as at the very voice
of prophecy, and it kept him a moment quiet.
He detained her, however, on her appearing about to
leave him alone in the rather cold clearance their
talk had made. “There positively isn’t
a sign of a hero to-night; the hero’s dodging
and shirking, the hero’s ashamed. Therefore,
you know, I think, what you must all really be
occupied with is the heroine.”
Miss Barrace took a minute. “The heroine?”
“The heroine. I’ve
treated her,” said Strether, “not a bit
like a hero. Oh,” he sighed, “I
don’t do it well!”
She eased him off. “You
do it as you can.” And then after another
hesitation: “I think she’s satisfied.”
But he remained compunctious.
“I haven’t been near her. I haven’t
looked at her.”
“Ah then you’ve lost a good deal!”
He showed he knew it. “She’s more
wonderful than ever?”
“Than ever. With Mr. Pocock.”
Strether wondered. “Madame de Vionnet with
Jim?”
“Madame de Vionnet with ‘Jim.’”
Miss Barrace was historic.
“And what’s she doing with him?”
“Ah you must ask him!”
Strether’s face lighted again
at the prospect. “It will be amusing
to do so.” Yet he continued to wonder.
“But she must have some idea.”
“Of course she has she
has twenty ideas. She has in the first place,”
said Miss Barrace, swinging a little her tortoise-shell,
“that of doing her part. Her part is to
help you.”
It came out as nothing had come yet;
links were missing and connexions unnamed, but it
was suddenly as if they were at the heart of their
subject. “Yes; how much more she does it,”
Strether gravely reflected, “than I help her!”
It all came over him as with the near presence of
the beauty, the grace, the intense, dissimulated spirit
with which he had, as he said, been putting off contact.
“She has courage.”
“Ah she has courage!”
Miss Barrace quite agreed; and it was as if for a
moment they saw the quantity in each other’s
face.
But indeed the whole thing was present.
“How much she must care!”
“Ah there it is. She does
care. But it isn’t, is it,” Miss
Barrace considerately added, “as if you had
ever had any doubt of that?”
Strether seemed suddenly to like to
feel that he really never had. “Why of
course it’s the whole point.”
“Voila!” Miss Barrace smiled.
“It’s why one came out,”
Strether went on. “And it’s why one
has stayed so long. And it’s also” he
abounded “why one’s going home.
It’s why, it’s why ”
“It’s why everything!”
she concurred. “It’s why she might
be to-night for all she looks and shows,
and for all your friend ‘Jim’ does about
twenty years old. That’s another of her
ideas; to be for him, and to be quite easily and charmingly,
as young as a little girl.”
Strether assisted at his distance.
“‘For him’? For Chad ?”
“For Chad, in a manner, naturally,
always. But in particular to-night for Mr.
Pocock.” And then as her friend still stared:
“Yes, it is of a bravery But that’s
what she has: her high sense of duty.”
It was more than sufficiently before them.
“When Mr. Newsome has his hands so embarrassed
with his sister ”
“It’s quite the least” Strether
filled it out “that she should take
his sister’s husband? Certainly quite
the least. So she has taken him.”
“She has taken him.” It was all
Miss Barrace had meant.
Still it remained enough. “It must be
funny.”
“Oh it is funny.” That of course
essentially went with it.
But it brought them back. How
indeed then she must cared, in answer to which Strether’s
entertainer dropped a comprehensive “Ah!”
expressive perhaps of some impatience for the time
he took to get used to it. She herself had got
used to it long before.
II-
When one morning within the week he
perceived the whole thing to be really at last upon
him Strether’s immediate feeling was all relief.
He had known this morning that something was about
to happen known it, in a moment, by Waymarsh’s
manner when Waymarsh appeared before him during his
brief consumption of coffee and a roll in the small
slippery salle-a-manger so associated with rich
rumination. Strether had taken there of late
various lonely and absent-minded meals; he communed
there, even at the end of June, with a suspected chill,
the air of old shivers mixed with old savours, the
air in which so many of his impressions had perversely
matured; the place meanwhile renewing its message
to him by the very circumstance of his single state.
He now sat there, for the most part, to sigh softly,
while he vaguely tilted his carafe, over the vision
of how much better Waymarsh was occupied. That
was really his success by the common measure to
have led this companion so on and on. He remembered
how at first there had been scarce a squatting-place
he could beguile him into passing; the actual outcome
of which at last was that there was scarce one that
could arrest him in his rush. His rush as
Strether vividly and amusedly figured it continued
to be all with Sarah, and contained perhaps moreover
the word of the whole enigma, whipping up in its fine
full-flavoured froth the very principle, for good or
for ill, of his own, of Strether’s destiny.
It might after all, to the end, only be that they
had united to save him, and indeed, so far as Waymarsh
was concerned, that had to be the spring of action.
Strether was glad at all events, in connexion with
the case, that the saving he required was not more
scant; so constituted a luxury was it in certain lights
just to lurk there out of the full glare. He
had moments of quite seriously wondering whether Waymarsh
wouldn’t in fact, thanks to old friendship and
a conceivable indulgence, make about as good terms
for him as he might make for himself. They wouldn’t
be the same terms of course; but they might have the
advantage that he himself probably should be able
to make none at all.
He was never in the morning very late,
but Waymarsh had already been out, and, after a peep
into the dim refectory, he presented himself with
much less than usual of his large looseness.
He had made sure, through the expanse of glass exposed
to the court, that they would be alone; and there
was now in fact that about him that pretty well took
up the room. He was dressed in the garments of
summer; and save that his white waistcoat was redundant
and bulging these things favoured, they determined,
his expression. He wore a straw hat such as his
friend hadn’t yet seen in Paris, and he showed
a buttonhole freshly adorned with a magnificent rose.
Strether read on the instant his story how,
astir for the previous hour, the sprinkled newness
of the day, so pleasant at that season in Paris, he
was fairly panting with the pulse of adventure and
had been with Mrs. Pocock, unmistakeably, to the Marche
aux Fleurs. Strether really knew in this
vision of him a joy that was akin to envy; so reversed
as he stood there did their old positions seem; so
comparatively doleful now showed, by the sharp turn
of the wheel, the posture of the pilgrim from Woollett.
He wondered, this pilgrim, if he had originally looked
to Waymarsh so brave and well, so remarkably launched,
as it was at present the latter’s privilege
to appear. He recalled that his friend had remarked
to him even at Chester that his aspect belied his
plea of prostration; but there certainly couldn’t
have been, for an issue, an aspect less concerned
than Waymarsh’s with the menace of decay.
Strether had at any rate never resembled a Southern
planter of the great days which was the
image picturesquely suggested by the happy relation
between the fuliginous face and the wide panama of
his visitor. This type, it further amused him
to guess, had been, on Waymarsh’s part, the object
of Sarah’s care; he was convinced that her taste
had not been a stranger to the conception and purchase
of the hat, any more than her fine fingers had been
guiltless of the bestowal of the rose. It came
to him in the current of thought, as things so oddly
did come, that he had never risen with the lark
to attend a brilliant woman to the Marche aux Fleurs;
this could be fastened on him in connexion neither
with Miss Gostrey nor with Madame de Vionnet; the
practice of getting up early for adventures could
indeed in no manner be fastened on him. It came
to him in fact that just here was his usual case:
he was for ever missing things through his general
genius for missing them, while others were for ever
picking them up through a contrary bent. And
it was others who looked abstemious and he who looked
greedy; it was he somehow who finally paid, and it
was others who mainly partook. Yes, he should
go to the scaffold yet for he wouldn’t know quite
whom. He almost, for that matter, felt on the
scaffold now and really quite enjoying it. It
worked out as because he was anxious there it
worked out as for this reason that Waymarsh was so
blooming. It was his trip for health, for
a change, that proved the success which
was just what Strether, planning and exerting himself,
had desired it should be. That truth already
sat full-blown on his companion’s lips; benevolence
breathed from them as with the warmth of active exercise,
and also a little as with the bustle of haste.
“Mrs. Pocock, whom I left a
quarter of an hour ago at her hotel, has asked me
to mention to you that she would like to find you at
home here in about another hour. She wants to
see you; she has something to say or considers,
I believe, that you may have: so that I asked
her myself why she shouldn’t come right round.
She hasn’t been round yet to
see our place; and I took upon myself to say that I
was sure you’d be glad to have her. The
thing’s therefore, you see, to keep right here
till she comes.”
The announcement was sociably, even
though, after Waymarsh’s wont, somewhat solemnly
made; but Strether quickly felt other things in it
than these light features. It was the first approach,
from that quarter, to admitted consciousness; it quickened
his pulse; it simply meant at last that he should
have but himself to thank if he didn’t know
where he was. He had finished his breakfast;
he pushed it away and was on his feet. There
were plenty of elements of surprise, but only one
of doubt. “The thing’s for you
to keep here too?” Waymarsh had been slightly
ambiguous.
He wasn’t ambiguous, however,
after this enquiry; and Strether’s understanding
had probably never before opened so wide and effective
a mouth as it was to open during the next five minutes.
It was no part of his friend’s wish, as appeared,
to help to receive Mrs. Pocock; he quite understood
the spirit in which she was to present herself, but
his connexion with her visit was limited to his having well,
as he might say perhaps a little promoted
it. He had thought, and had let her know it,
that Strether possibly would think she might have been
round before. At any rate, as turned out, she
had been wanting herself, quite a while, to come.
“I told her,” said Waymarsh, “that
it would have been a bright idea if she had only carried
it out before.”
Strether pronounced it so bright as
to be almost dazzling. “But why HASn’t
she carried it out before? She has seen me every
day she had only to name her hour.
I’ve been waiting and waiting.”
“Well, I told her you had.
And she has been waiting too.” It was,
in the oddest way in the world, on the showing of
this tone, a genial new pressing coaxing Waymarsh;
a Waymarsh conscious with a different consciousness
from any he had yet betrayed, and actually rendered
by it almost insinuating. He lacked only time
for full persuasion, and Strether was to see in a
moment why. Meantime, however, our friend perceived,
he was announcing a step of some magnanimity on Mrs.
Pocock’s part, so that he could deprecate a sharp
question. It was his own high purpose in fact
to have smoothed sharp questions to rest. He
looked his old comrade very straight in the eyes, and
he had never conveyed to him in so mute a manner so
much kind confidence and so much good advice.
Everything that was between them was again in his
face, but matured and shelved and finally disposed
of. “At any rate,” he added, “she’s
coming now.”
Considering how many pieces had to
fit themselves, it all fell, in Strether’s brain,
into a close rapid order. He saw on the spot
what had happened, and what probably would yet; and
it was all funny enough. It was perhaps just
this freedom of appreciation that wound him up to
his flare of high spirits. “What is she
coming for? to kill me?”
“She’s coming to be very
very kind to you, and you must let me say that
I greatly hope you’ll not be less so to herself.”
This was spoken by Waymarsh with much
gravity of admonition, and as Strether stood there
he knew he had but to make a movement to take the
attitude of a man gracefully receiving a present.
The present was that of the opportunity dear old
Waymarsh had flattered himself he had divined in him
the slight soreness of not having yet thoroughly enjoyed;
so he had brought it to him thus, as on a little silver
breakfast-tray, familiarly though delicately without
oppressive pomp; and he was to bend and smile and
acknowledge, was to take and use and be grateful.
He was not that was the beauty of it to
be asked to deflect too much from his dignity.
No wonder the old boy bloomed in this bland air of
his own distillation. Strether felt for a moment
as if Sarah were actually walking up and down outside.
Wasn’t she hanging about the porte-cochère
while her friend thus summarily opened a way?
Strether would meet her but to take it, and everything
would be for the best in the best of possible worlds.
He had never so much known what any one meant as,
in the light of this demonstration, he knew what Mrs.
Newsome did. It had reached Waymarsh from Sarah,
but it had reached Sarah from her mother, and there
was no break in the chain by which it reached him.
“Has anything particular happened,” he
asked after a minute “so suddenly
to determine her? Has she heard anything unexpected
from home?”
Waymarsh, on this, it seemed to him,
looked at him harder than ever. “’Unexpected’?”
He had a brief hesitation; then, however, he was firm.
“We’re leaving Paris.”
“Leaving? That is sudden.”
Waymarsh showed a different opinion.
“Less so than it may seem. The purpose
of Mrs. Pocock’s visit is to explain to you in
fact that it’s not.”
Strether didn’t at all know
if he had really an advantage anything
that would practically count as one; but he enjoyed
for the moment as for the first time in
his life the sense of so carrying it off.
He wondered it was amusing if
he felt as the impudent feel. “I shall
take great pleasure, I assure you, in any explanation.
I shall be delighted to receive Sarah.”
The sombre glow just darkened in his
comrade’s eyes; but he was struck with the way
it died out again. It was too mixed with another
consciousness it was too smothered, as might
be said, in flowers. He really for the time
regretted it poor dear old sombre glow!
Something straight and simple, something heavy and
empty, had been eclipsed in its company; something
by which he had best known his friend. Waymarsh
wouldn’t be his friend, somehow, without
the occasional ornament of the sacred rage, and the
right to the sacred rage inestimably precious
for Strether’s charity he also seemed
in a manner, and at Mrs. Pocock’s elbow, to
have forfeited. Strether remembered the occasion
early in their stay when on that very spot he had
come out with his earnest, his ominous “Quit
it!” and, so remembering, felt it
hang by a hair that he didn’t himself now utter
the same note. Waymarsh was having a good time this
was the truth that was embarrassing for him, and he
was having it then and there, he was having it in
Europe, he was having it under the very protection
of circumstances of which he didn’t in the least
approve; all of which placed him in a false position,
with no issue possible none at least by
the grand manner. It was practically in the
manner of any one it was all but in poor
Strether’s own that instead of taking
anything up he merely made the most of having to be
himself explanatory. “I’m not leaving
for the United States direct. Mr. and Mrs. Pocock
and Miss Mamie are thinking of a little trip before
their own return, and we’ve been talking for
some days past of our joining forces. We’ve
settled it that we do join and that we sail together
the end of next month. But we start to-morrow
for Switzerland. Mrs. Pocock wants some scenery.
She hasn’t had much yet.”
He was brave in his way too, keeping
nothing back, confessing all there was, and only leaving
Strether to make certain connexions. “Is
what Mrs. Newsome had cabled her daughter an injunction
to break off short?”
The grand manner indeed at this just
raised its head a little. “I know nothing
about Mrs. Newsome’s cables.”
Their eyes met on it with some intensity during
the few seconds of which something happened quite
out of proportion to the time. It happened that
Strether, looking thus at his friend, didn’t
take his answer for truth and that something
more again occurred in consequence of that.
Yes Waymarsh just did know about Mrs.
Newsome’s cables: to what other end than
that had they dined together at Bignon’s?
Strether almost felt for the instant that it was
to Mrs. Newsome herself the dinner had been given;
and, for that matter, quite felt how she must have
known about it and, as he might think, protected and
consecrated it. He had a quick blurred view
of daily cables, questions, answers, signals:
clear enough was his vision of the expense that, when
so wound up, the lady at home was prepared to incur.
Vivid not less was his memory of what, during his
long observation of her, some of her attainments of
that high pitch had cost her. Distinctly she
was at the highest now, and Waymarsh, who imagined
himself an independent performer, was really, forcing
his fine old natural voice, an overstrained accompanist.
The whole reference of his errand seemed to mark
her for Strether as by this time consentingly familiar
to him, and nothing yet had so despoiled her of a
special shade of consideration. “You don’t
know,” he asked, “whether Sarah has been
directed from home to try me on the matter of my also
going to Switzerland?”
“I know,” said Waymarsh
as manfully as possible, “nothing whatever about
her private affairs; though I believe her to be acting
in conformity with things that have my highest respect.”
It was as manful as possible, but it was still the
false note as it had to be to convey so
sorry a statement. He knew everything, Strether
more and more felt, that he thus disclaimed, and his
little punishment was just in this doom to a second
fib. What falser position given the
man could the most vindictive mind impose?
He ended by squeezing through a passage in which three
months before he would certainly have stuck fast.
“Mrs Pocock will probably be ready herself
to answer any enquiry you may put to her. But,”
he continued, “But !” He faltered
on it.
“But what? Don’t put her too many?”
Waymarsh looked large, but the harm
was done; he couldn’t, do what he would, help
looking rosy. “Don’t do anything
you’ll be sorry for.”
It was an attenuation, Strether guessed,
of something else that had been on his lips; it was
a sudden drop to directness, and was thereby the voice
of sincerity. He had fallen to the supplicating
note, and that immediately, for our friend, made a
difference and reinstated him. They were in communication
as they had been, that first morning, in Sarah’s
salon and in her presence and Madame de Vionnet’s;
and the same recognition of a great good will was
again, after all, possible. Only the amount
of response Waymarsh had then taken for granted was
doubled, decupled now. This came out when he
presently said: “Of course I needn’t
assure you I hope you’ll come with us.”
Then it was that his implications and expectations
loomed up for Strether as almost pathetically gross.
The latter patted his shoulder while
he thanked him, giving the go-by to the question of
joining the Pococks; he expressed the joy he felt at
seeing him go forth again so brave and free, and he
in fact almost took leave of him on the spot.
“I shall see you again of course before you
go; but I’m meanwhile much obliged to you for
arranging so conveniently for what you’ve told
me. I shall walk up and down in the court there dear
little old court which we’ve each bepaced so,
this last couple of months, to the tune of our flights
and our drops, our hesitations and our plunges:
I shall hang about there, all impatience and excitement,
please let Sarah know, till she graciously presents
herself. Leave me with her without fear,”
he laughed; “I assure you I shan’t hurt
her. I don’t think either she’ll
hurt me: I’m in a situation in which
damage was some time ago discounted. Besides,
that isn’t what worries you but
don’t, don’t explain! We’re
all right as we are: which was the degree of
success our adventure was pledged to for each of us.
We weren’t, it seemed, all right as we were
before; and we’ve got over the ground, all things
considered, quickly. I hope you’ll have
a lovely time in the Alps.”
Waymarsh fairly looked up at him as
from the foot of them. “I don’t
know as I ought really to go.”
It was the conscience of Milrose in
the very voice of Milrose, but, oh it was feeble and
flat! Strether suddenly felt quite ashamed for
him; he breathed a greater boldness. “Let
yourself, on the contrary, go in all agreeable
directions. These are precious hours at
our age they mayn’t recur. Don’t
have it to say to yourself at Milrose, next winter,
that you hadn’t courage for them.”
And then as his comrade queerly stared: “Live
up to Mrs. Pocock.”
“Live up to her?”
“You’re a great help to her.”
Waymarsh looked at it as at one of
the uncomfortable things that were certainly true
and that it was yet ironical to say. “It’s
more then than you are.”
“That’s exactly your own
chance and advantage. Besides,” said Strether,
“I do in my way contribute. I know what
I’m about.”
Waymarsh had kept on his great panama,
and, as he now stood nearer the door, his last look
beneath the shade of it had turned again to darkness
and warning. “So do I! See here,
Strether.”
“I know what you’re going to say.
’Quit this’?”
“Quit this!” But it lacked
its old intensity; nothing of it remained; it went
out of the room with him.
III-
Almost the first thing, strangely
enough, that, about an hour later, Strether found
himself doing in Sarah’s presence was to remark
articulately on this failure, in their friend, of what
had been superficially his great distinction.
It was as if he alluded of course to the
grand manner the dear man had sacrificed
it to some other advantage; which would be of course
only for himself to measure. It might be simply
that he was physically so much more sound than on
his first coming out; this was all prosaic, comparatively
cheerful and vulgar. And fortunately, if one
came to that, his improvement in health was really
itself grander than any manner it could be conceived
as having cost him. “You yourself alone,
dear Sarah” Strether took the plunge “have
done him, it strikes me, in these three weeks, as
much good as all the rest of his time together.”
It was a plunge because somehow the
range of reference was, in the conditions, “funny,”
and made funnier still by Sarah’s attitude, by
the turn the occasion had, with her appearance, so
sensibly taken. Her appearance was really indeed
funnier than anything else the spirit in
which he felt her to be there as soon as she was there,
the shade of obscurity that cleared up for him as
soon as he was seated with her in the small salon
de lecture that had, for the most part, in all the
weeks, witnessed the wane of his early vivacity of
discussion with Waymarsh. It was an immense
thing, quite a tremendous thing, for her to have come:
this truth opened out to him in spite of his having
already arrived for himself at a fairly vivid view
of it. He had done exactly what he had given
Waymarsh his word for had walked and re-walked
the court while he awaited her advent; acquiring in
this exercise an amount of light that affected him
at the time as flooding the scene. She had decided
upon the step in order to give him the benefit of
a doubt, in order to be able to say to her mother that
she had, even to abjectness, smoothed the way for
him. The doubt had been as to whether he mightn’t
take her as not having smoothed it and the
admonition had possibly come from Waymarsh’s
more detached spirit. Waymarsh had at any rate,
certainly, thrown his weight into the scale he
had pointed to the importance of depriving their friend
of a grievance. She had done justice to the
plea, and it was to set herself right with a high
ideal that she actually sat there in her state.
Her calculation was sharp in the immobility with
which she held her tall parasol-stick upright and
at arm’s length, quite as if she had struck
the place to plant her flag; in the separate precautions
she took not to show as nervous; in the aggressive
repose in which she did quite nothing but wait for
him. Doubt ceased to be possible from the moment
he had taken in that she had arrived with no proposal
whatever; that her concern was simply to show what
she had come to receive. She had come to receive
his submission, and Waymarsh was to have made it plain
to him that she would expect nothing less. He
saw fifty things, her host, at this convenient stage;
but one of those he most saw was that their anxious
friend hadn’t quite had the hand required of
him. Waymarsh had, however, uttered the
request that she might find him mild, and while hanging
about the court before her arrival he had turned over
with zeal the different ways in which he could be so.
The difficulty was that if he was mild he wasn’t,
for her purpose, conscious. If she wished him
conscious as everything about her cried
aloud that she did she must accordingly
be at costs to make him so. Conscious he was,
for himself but only of too many things;
so she must choose the one she required.
Practically, however, it at last got
itself named, and when once that had happened they
were quite at the centre of their situation. One
thing had really done as well as another; when Strether
had spoken of Waymarsh’s leaving him, and that
had necessarily brought on a reference to Mrs. Pocock’s
similar intention, the jump was but short to supreme
lucidity. Light became indeed after that so intense
that Strether would doubtless have but half made out,
in the prodigious glare, by which of the two the issue
had been in fact precipitated. It was, in their
contracted quarters, as much there between them as
if it had been something suddenly spilled with a crash
and a splash on the floor. The form of his submission
was to be an engagement to acquit himself within the
twenty-four hours. “He’ll go in a
moment if you give him the word he assures
me on his honour he’ll do that”:
this came in its order, out of its order, in respect
to Chad, after the crash had occurred. It came
repeatedly during the time taken by Strether to feel
that he was even more fixed in his rigour than he had
supposed the time he was not above adding
to a little by telling her that such a way of putting
it on her brother’s part left him sufficiently
surprised. She wasn’t at all funny at last she
was really fine; and he felt easily where she was
strong strong for herself. It hadn’t
yet so come home to him that she was nobly and appointedly
officious. She was acting in interests grander
and clearer than that of her poor little personal,
poor little Parisian equilibrium, and all his consciousness
of her mother’s moral pressure profited by this
proof of its sustaining force. She would be
held up; she would be strengthened; he needn’t
in the least be anxious for her. What would once
more have been distinct to him had he tried to make
it so was that, as Mrs. Newsome was essentially all
moral pressure, the presence of this element was almost
identical with her own presence. It wasn’t
perhaps that he felt he was dealing with her straight,
but it was certainly as if she had been dealing straight
with him. She was reaching him somehow by
the lengthened arm of the spirit, and he was having
to that extent to take her into account; but he wasn’t
reaching her in turn, not making her take him;
he was only reaching Sarah, who appeared to take so
little of him. “Something has clearly passed
between you and Chad,” he presently said, “that
I think I ought to know something more about.
Does he put it all,” he smiled, “on me?”
“Did you come out,” she asked, “to
put it all on him?”
But he replied to this no further
than, after an instant, by saying: “Oh
it’s all right. Chad I mean’s all
right in having said to you well anything
he may have said. I’ll take it all what
he does put on me. Only I must see him before
I see you again.”
She hesitated, but she brought it
out. “Is it absolutely necessary you should
see me again?”
“Certainly, if I’m to
give you any definite word about anything.”
“Is it your idea then,”
she returned, “that I shall keep on meeting you
only to be exposed to fresh humiliation?”
He fixed her a longer time.
“Are your instructions from Mrs. Newsome that
you shall, even at the worst, absolutely and irretrievably
break with me?”
“My instructions from Mrs. Newsome
are, if you please, my affair. You know perfectly
what your own were, and you can judge for yourself
of what it can do for you to have made what you have
of them. You can perfectly see, at any rate,
I’ll go so far as to say, that if I wish not
to expose myself I must wish still less to expose her.”
She had already said more than she had quite expected;
but, though she had also pulled up, the colour in
her face showed him he should from one moment to the
other have it all. He now indeed felt the high
importance of his having it. “What is
your conduct,” she broke out as if to explain “what
is your conduct but an outrage to women like us?
I mean your acting as if there can be a doubt as
between us and such another of his duty?”
He thought a moment. It was
rather much to deal with at once; not only the question
itself, but the sore abysses it revealed. “Of
course they’re totally different kinds of duty.”
“And do you pretend that he
has any at all to such another?”
“Do you mean to Madame de Vionnet?”
He uttered the name not to affront her, but yet again
to gain time time that he needed for taking
in something still other and larger than her demand
of a moment before. It wasn’t at once that
he could see all that was in her actual challenge;
but when he did he found himself just checking a low
vague sound, a sound which was perhaps the nearest
approach his vocal chords had ever known to a growl.
Everything Mrs. Pocock had failed to give a sign of
recognising in Chad as a particular part of a transformation everything
that had lent intention to this particular failure affected
him as gathered into a large loose bundle and thrown,
in her words, into his face. The missile made
him to that extent catch his breath; which however
he presently recovered. “Why when a woman’s
at once so charming and so beneficent ”
“You can sacrifice mothers and
sisters to her without a blush and can make them cross
the ocean on purpose to feel the more and take from
you the straighter, how you do it?”
Yes, she had taken him up as short
and as sharply as that, but he tried not to flounder
in her grasp. “I don’t think there’s
anything I’ve done in any such calculated way
as you describe. Everything has come as a sort
of indistinguishable part of everything else.
Your coming out belonged closely to my having come
before you, and my having come was a result of our
general state of mind. Our general state of mind
had proceeded, on its side, from our queer ignorance,
our queer misconceptions and confusions from
which, since then, an inexorable tide of light seems
to have floated us into our perhaps still queerer
knowledge. Don’t you like your brother
as he is,” he went on, “and haven’t
you given your mother an intelligible account of all
that that comes to?”
It put to her also, doubtless, his
own tone, too many things, this at least would have
been the case hadn’t his final challenge directly
helped her. Everything, at the stage they had
reached, directly helped her, because everything betrayed
in him such a basis of intention. He saw the
odd way things came out! that he would have
been held less monstrous had he only been a little
wilder. What exposed him was just his poor old
trick of quiet inwardness, what exposed him was his
thinking such offence. He hadn’t in
the least however the desire to irritate that Sarah
imputed to him, and he could only at last temporise,
for the moment, with her indignant view. She
was altogether more inflamed than he had expected,
and he would probably understand this better when
he should learn what had occurred for her with Chad.
Till then her view of his particular blackness, her
clear surprise at his not clutching the pole she held
out, must pass as extravagant. “I leave
you to flatter yourself,” she returned, “that
what you speak of is what you’ve beautifully
done. When a thing has been already described
in such a lovely way !” But she caught
herself up, and her comment on his description rang
out sufficiently loud. “Do you consider
her even an apology for a decent woman?”
Ah there it was at last! She
put the matter more crudely than, for his own mixed
purposes, he had yet had to do; but essentially it
was all one matter. It was so much so
much; and she treated it, poor lady, as so little.
He grew conscious, as he was now apt to do, of a strange
smile, and the next moment he found himself talking
like Miss Barrace. “She has struck me from
the first as wonderful. I’ve been thinking
too moreover that, after all, she would probably have
represented even for yourself something rather new
and rather good.”
He was to have given Mrs. Pocock with
this, however, but her best opportunity for a sound
of derision. “Rather new? I hope
so with all my heart!”
“I mean,” he explained,
“that she might have affected you by her exquisite
amiability a real revelation, it has seemed
to myself; her high rarity, her distinction of every
sort.”
He had been, with these words, consciously
a little “precious”; but he had had to
be he couldn’t give her the truth
of the case without them; and it seemed to him moreover
now that he didn’t care. He had at all
events not served his cause, for she sprang at its
exposed side. “A ’revelation’ to
me: I’ve come to such a woman for
a revelation? You talk to me about ’distinction’ you,
you who’ve had your privilege? when
the most distinguished woman we shall either of us
have seen in this world sits there insulted, in her
loneliness, by your incredible comparison!”
Strether forbore, with an effort,
from straying; but he looked all about him.
“Does your mother herself make the point that
she sits insulted?”
Sarah’s answer came so straight,
so “pat,” as might have been said, that
he felt on the instant its origin. “She
has confided to my judgement and my tenderness the
expression of her personal sense of everything, and
the assertion of her personal dignity.”
They were the very words of the lady
of Woollett he would have known them in
a thousand; her parting charge to her child.
Mrs. Pocock accordingly spoke to this extent by book,
and the fact immensely moved him. “If
she does really feel as you say it’s of course
very very dreadful. I’ve given sufficient
proof, one would have thought,” he added, “of
my deep admiration for Mrs. Newsome.”
“And pray what proof would one
have thought you’d call sufficient?
That of thinking this person here so far superior
to her?”
He wondered again; he waited.
“Ah dear Sarah, you must leave me this
person here!”
In his desire to avoid all vulgar
retorts, to show how, even perversely, he clung to
his rag of reason, he had softly almost wailed this
plea. Yet he knew it to be perhaps the most positive
declaration he had ever made in his life, and his
visitor’s reception of it virtually gave it
that importance. “That’s exactly
what I’m delighted to do. God knows we
don’t want her! You take good care not to
meet,” she observed in a still higher key, “my
question about their life. If you do consider
it a thing one can even speak of, I congratulate
you on your taste!”
The life she alluded to was of course
Chad’s and Madame de Vionnet’s, which
she thus bracketed together in a way that made him
wince a little; there being nothing for him but to
take home her full intention. It was none the
less his inconsequence that while he had himself been
enjoying for weeks the view of the brilliant woman’s
specific action, he just suffered from any characterisation
of it by other lips. “I think tremendously
well of her, at the same time that I seem to feel
her ‘life’ to be really none of my business.
It’s my business, that is, only so far as Chad’s
own life is affected by it; and what has happened,
don’t you see? is that Chad’s has been
affected so beautifully. The proof of the pudding’s
in the eating” he tried, with no
great success, to help it out with a touch of pleasantry,
while she let him go on as if to sink and sink.
He went on however well enough, as well as he could
do without fresh counsel; he indeed shouldn’t
stand quite firm, he felt, till he should have re-established
his communications with Chad. Still, he could
always speak for the woman he had so definitely promised
to “save.” This wasn’t quite
for her the air of salvation; but as that chill fairly
deepened what did it become but a reminder that one
might at the worst perish with her? And
it was simple enough it was rudimentary:
not, not to give her away. “I find in
her more merits than you would probably have patience
with my counting over. And do you know,”
he enquired, “the effect you produce on me by
alluding to her in such terms? It’s as
if you had some motive in not recognising all she
has done for your brother, and so shut your eyes to
each side of the matter, in order, whichever side
comes up, to get rid of the other. I don’t,
you must allow me to say, see how you can with any
pretence to candour get rid of the side nearest you.”
“Near me that
sort of thing?” And Sarah gave a jerk back of
her head that well might have nullified any active
proximity.
It kept her friend himself at his
distance, and he respected for a moment the interval.
Then with a last persuasive effort he bridged it.
“You don’t, on your honour, appreciate
Chad’s fortunate development?”
“Fortunate?” she echoed
again. And indeed she was prepared. “I
call it hideous.”
Her departure had been for some minutes
marked as imminent, and she was already at the door
that stood open to the court, from the threshold of
which she delivered herself of this judgement.
It rang out so loud as to produce for the time the
hush of everything else. Strether quite, as
an effect of it, breathed less bravely; he could acknowledge
it, but simply enough. “Oh if you think
that !”
“Then all’s at an end?
So much the better. I do think that!”
She passed out as she spoke and took her way straight
across the court, beyond which, separated from them
by the deep arch of the porte-cochère the
low victoria that had conveyed her from her own
hotel was drawn up. She made for it with decision,
and the manner of her break, the sharp shaft of her
rejoinder, had an intensity by which Strether was at
first kept in arrest. She had let fly at him
as from a stretched cord, and it took him a minute
to recover from the sense of being pierced. It
was not the penetration of surprise; it was that, much
more, of certainty; his case being put for him as
he had as yet only put it to himself. She was
away at any rate; she had distanced him with
rather a grand spring, an effect of pride and ease,
after all; she had got into her carriage before he
could overtake her, and the vehicle was already in
motion. He stopped halfway; he stood there in
the court only seeing her go and noting that she gave
him no other look. The way he had put it to
himself was that all quite might be at an end.
Each of her movements, in this resolute rupture,
reaffirmed, re-enforced that idea. Sarah passed
out of sight in the sunny street while, planted there
in the centre of the comparatively grey court, he continued
merely to look before him. It probably was
all at an end.